While I've been doing relatively well on my journey thus far, there have been a few minor set-backs which at the time seemed devastating, but are simply a reminder to take it one step at a time. Literally, ONE. FREAKIN'. STEP. And a good reminder to simply "stop and smell the roses."
Fortunately, this has been a practice I have been able to perfect in one of the most generous gestures I have ever experienced thanks to my cousins who all gathered together and arranged to have weekly flowers delivered to me since my diagnosis. They usually arrive on Mondays which for some reason are always the most difficult days. Each delivery is accompanied by an inspirational quote of some sort. And the quote always seems to provide the perfect sentiment/inspiration/encouragement. This week's quote is perhaps one of my favorite and so relevant for where I am at the moment (can I get an amen!):
"The way I see it, if you want the rainbow, you gotta put up with the rain." ~Dolly Parton
As I approach my halfway point on the journey, I am learning to dig deep and embracing that this is hard, really really hard. For me, this means surpassing all the things I think I'm supposed to do, and simply going to the place where I don't know what the hell to do. No blame, no expectations, no judgements, just surrender and love. And thus, where I naturally tap into this energetic safety net.
And for the times I forget this important lesson, I have the roses to remind me, and I literally take time to smell them. EVERY. SINGLE. DAY
To my cousins, thank you for one of the most precious gifts ever. You are my brothers and sisters and such beautiful reflections of graciousness and love that are fueling me on this crazy journey.
With infinite love and gratitude ~ Cousin Paige